okay I just got home late last night and wasn't been able to post anything. :"(
cram cram cram...
I was absent yesterday for personal reasons. :)) well... honestly, I just got Home from Sagada yesterday. Freaking one WHOLE day trip. more than 12 hours. I don't want to post about it. :D I'll keep it all in my head. well the place is nice really nice. You can see the pics in my facebook account :D or whatever account I'll post it.
So today... regular boring day...hmm... nothing much kilig factor. or whatever. TYPICAL WEDNESDAY...
Music then Eco first two subjects then break.... after that, Health and Language. Health we talk about pregnancy. I know it already since my mom is an Ob-gyne. then Language... tell me about it. I got bored to death. SERIOUSLY!
Lunch time... I treated her lunch... (ps if you read this... no need to pay :D my treat. Since you don't want the cornetto anyway :'(( ) I ate the worst lunch ever!! the CHEESY BACKED MAC taste like PLASTIC!! seriously.. T-T I was hoping for a nice meal. :/ that didn't made my day.
then after eating we went back to the classroom... waited for our classmates for the practice. Well there wasn't much practice since almost all of them came late :(...
Ms. C was there watching/ listening to us. and I could sense that she got pressured. REALLY... I can sense that she want cry already. good thing she didn't...
After lunch....
ADVANCE ALGEBRA! HOLY HOUR AND IT'S FREAKING AA. T-T torture right. Our professor keeps on blabbing about things like this and that... let me tell you... I DON'T UNDERSTAND ANYTHING. T-T so I just let the time pass... Let it pass let it pass let it pass. XD how... simple. FINISHING THE SONG I'VE STARTED MONTHS AGO. and I finished it *claps* and I won't let anyone read it. Except for Juca :) HEY MY SONGS ARE NOT THAT GOOD. i'm an amateur what do you expect! :))
Next subject... PHYSICS. another torturing schedule right. Math then Physics. anyway... our teacher yeah she explained the Homework given and the HAPPY (note the sarcasm) I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT SHE'S TALKING ABOUT. *cries* oh I sat beside Juca... the last row, so we can talk and everything. :D there's a main reason thou and IM NOT TELLING :))
Last subject.... GUIDANCE. FINALLY, a light subject. :D I'm still seating beside Juca. :D so there. we talked about Sexuality and stuffs I'm really confuse about XD this guys EW >.<
DONT CALL ME LESBO FOR LIKING A GIRL! T-T You know I really don't know why I like her.
I mean... okay it was after I got close to her. I don't want to be attached to her cause I know in the end SHE'LL NEVER LIKE ME BACK. So here I am with the same dilema that happened 2 years ago... T-T oh hell I'm starting with this freaking topic again ARGH!
I DON'T LIKE IT ANYMORE I WANT TO END THIS! VERY VERY VERY BAD!!! >.< Can I just take my heart out and live? T-T EMO MUCH. not so me :))
Okay fieldtrip tomorrow.
expect the unexpected.
LAME LAME FIELDTRIP :'(
tada
can u take ur heart out and live... i dont think so
ReplyDeletecan u get to the level of ignoring and supressing ur emotions to the point they dont exist?... yes u can, i did it a long time ago
do i recommend anyone do it... no
it was the best and worst thing i have ever done to myself... sure i dont feel sarrow, or emotional pain, but i cant feel love either... happiness is a hard one for me... i fake it well, tho my acting is weak, and it shouldnt b so hard to see that i'm miserable, tho no one seems to see, and if they do, they do nothing to try to help... just as fine cause i wouldnt want the help
anyway... idk if u have been reading my daily blogs or wahtever... if u want to feel free to read them
here's the link if u care
http://lifeasashallowgrave.blogspot.com/2009/11/brief-idea.html