Round 2

Okay.. this maybe my round two of an emotional breakdown.

Why am I having such?...

....

I really don't know.... weird right. I don't want to be me emo-ish right now.. but I can't help it...

Well first of all, I got a bit annoyed awhile ago. HELLO! it's the day of the contest and the Tarpaulin and it's not even done!! They didn't tell us!! it's kinda annoying right. So we have to cram to make a poster but they specifically said Tarpaulin. HEY! on the bright side they manage to cram it for 2 hours. Thanks to our Language teacher and the artistic talents of my classmates :)

Second Case, I got the result of my math long test... as always I failed... it's not that I didn't study. I don't know what happened to me... I don't recall all the lessons and I got confused. Not blaming or not reasoning... I know it's my fault... So I can't blame anyone. This added to my frustration this day.

Third, the infomercial video. Celina and I stayed in the IT office for 3 hours. We tried everything, converting, uploading it in youtube... BASICALLY EVERYTHING WE CAN!!! I tried cheering her up... and I guess I failed. We skipped our Lunch and ditched (w/permission :P) TLE class. The teacher didn't listen to my reason anyway. I asked if I can be excused, since Celina is already in the IT room, I also excused her. She allowed us :) so... for 2 hours we tried converting and thinking of ways to at LEAST play the original file.... Since it's already 2.30 pm and the contest will end at 4 pm. I told her to make another one, she was hesitant at first but seeing the school's low technology she agreed. We didn't pressure her or whatever. But I can see in her face the pressure and frustration... she never said anything... Despite all that, she doesn't want me to leave her... even if one of our classmates was there... made me happy :)

Fourth... Here we go, LOVE... I think I have a crush on her... >.< Who KNOWS! ME!! I should know. But my freaking heart won't tell me T-T or I'm not listening... *shrugs* I don't know what made me like her.. Maybe because she's so sweet and nice... also caring... O.O WAAAAAAAAH! I don't want to be in this kind of situation.... Because, she's my friend and she shares stories about her personal life.. T-T like her crush blahblah. She likes someone else... which is okay... But when someone is being tooooooo clingy to her... like hugging her all the time. I get JEALOUS. And I don't know if I have too or if I have the right to be.

and lastly...

GRADUATION SONG! It's not yet done and the contest is on Dec 8!! I really don't want to feel pressured. But I can't help it. I want to help but I'm not good at this. I was even placed in S1 meaning HIGH NOTES!! the S1 group is trying to form our own pitch since the suggested pitch was too high.. We might.. dunno. :))

There. all my frustrations. That's only some of it. I have a lot of things in my mind. and I'm starting to break...fall... and die JOKE :D

that's it. T-T